Waaahhh blag. Missed you. 'sbeen so long since I last updated. So many things happened (cliche). So many things I want to talk about (cliche). So many pressing matters on top of the other (cliche). Thanks, I'm a walking cliche, I know.
Drama-rant up ahead.
Okay, so people are teasing me for (supposedly) being a PDI (Philippine Daily Inquirer) Scholar. No, I haven't got the scholarship yet, I'm still in the "screening" process, if that be the word. However, news travels fast where news is made, duh. So practically the whole journalism department knew about it, even Ate Penny, a senior! Gaadd. That was what I wanted to avoid. I'm not keen on being on the spotlight so much. I'm more of a 'behind-the-scenes' guy.
I have no problem with the teasing. Some are even darn hilarious whenever they tease me (take Kumi for example, even coining the 'Daddy Yammy Yambot' name for Inquirer's publisher). I mean, I totally understand how I'd suddenly become the center of attention and, on some rare occasions, the butt of jokes.
(here's the drama part) What I can't take is the pressure, the expectation. By being a PDI Scholar I'm forever labeled to be someone 'great' or 'good' with writing. Imagine the stigma, imaging the feeling. Once again I'm forced to live up to some expectation I didn't even solicit. If I fail, it's for shame. I'm not even half as good as some journ students in our college. I mean, there are a lot more people deserving of the scholarship (like Dana and Kath and Tine, I'm not kidding or humoring you). The question is, why me?
It's a curse, I tell you. And it gets worse.
But then again that's just me. Just my two cents. ^__^ Let's still thank God for this opportunity. Thank God for this blessing. =) And work hard to make it work. =D
humility is good..but those you think are "better" than you didn't get the chance to be considered right? so maybe you are way better than you think you are. the "big shots(PDI)" did or do or whatever..haha
ReplyDeleteandrama mo. wahahaha.
ReplyDeletewow, special mention.
ReplyDeleteiyak na ako ulit.
ok lang yan, jm. Sayo ang PDI--sakin ang Time.
HAHAHA. ASA.
sabi nga ni DAVE LLORITO "I'm a journalist by curse."
ReplyDeletepero shempre ibang context sa kanya. pero no matter what JM, lab pa rin kita..
masarap ka lang talaga asrain! heheh
hi jm! alam kong super late na tong reply ko na to. hehehe.... ngayon ko lang nabasa tong entry na to hehehe iskolar. :D JM, thanks for the compliment but please don't belittle yourself. you won't get nominated for the PDi scholarship if you're not good. ^__^ wish you all the best
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